It took me a while to really catch the “twitter” fever and actually tweet on a (semi) regular basis. I thought about blogging a long time ago because I have thoughts I want to share, but procrastinate (the formula for failure) because I think I don’t have the time or won’t be able to complete a paragraph with one thought. Another reason is that because most of every activity I start, I am sure to be interrupted by one of my three boys! So here I am again, blogging. I made a decision. I am going to do less worrying about “I will have to do too much editing before I want anyone to read it”. Reason being, maybe no one will read it anyway. Maybe blogging is like the old version of “dear diary”, which I didn’t trust because “What if someone read it?” How ironic!
My reason for writing today is not about whether or not I will blog. I have decided I will blog. I have been listening to different life coaching/motivating speakers, one that started with watching The Secret. One of my most wonderful best friends came over about three years ago with her portable DVD player and the DVD The Secret that she had borrowed from the library, (A place that I think is an incredible resource and I wish I would have learned that as a child. Note to self: teach children this value,) and she said “I want you to watch this with me”, and that was it. I was obsessed. The messages gave me hope and reasoning. I was proud to find that a lot of the principals were natural instincts that I used in my life already. I just didn’t know it and I didn’t know that they had a name and that I could actually focus them to mold my advantages. I chose a couple of the speakers that shared messages I liked, in The Secret and, I did some research on them, and read their books and implemented their messages in my life.
At this point I am unemployed for 9 months, mind you I have my first university courses in that time. It has been a very emotional roller-coaster for me. I am very thankful to have a wonderful man in my life to help support me through this time, It’s important to have people in your life that support your dreams. My thoughts are always all over, jumping from one spot to the next. I’m finding that the key is to reign them in, (write them down?) and do something with them. A lot of my personal mind growth has come from accepting the fact that my income has gone down by 50%, and that’s hard to accept when you are raising a family. I’ve applied for pretty big number of jobs, a number that I won’t share at this moment, and the rejection of not getting the first few jobs, hurt! I thought I was a catch.
Starting this week, I decided to make more decisions. I have LOTS of plans and LOTS of ideas. One of them is to start MyScript group. I’ll talk more about that next time… I have a 6 year old calling me right now.